I listen to Mika at work thanks to be friend recommending their music to me. It's just the best ever. So catchy, so positive, and it just makes you want to get up and dance. Of course I've been on the manic edge for a while now so this song absolutely will not leave my consciousness. But I'm OK with it as it's such a cheery song. Like cotton candy and sparkles. check them out.
Ok, I am going to have to come back and read this later...You're wearing me out :) I think my heart started to speed up or something. But I was waiting for you to talk about mania....because my experience with it has been so unique. I wanted to see what someones else's was.
ReplyDeletePart of me is hoping I am manic right now...but I know I am not because I am still eating, and still get hungry. Those are my first 2 signs...no sleep, no hunger. And I am just hoping that this time, when the mania comes, and I KNOW it will this time...that I will stay in one spot, stay docked, stay pegged to the ground.....and not go racing off to a foreign country. And I think my chances are pretty good because I have stayed consistently in treatment, taken EVERYTHING my doctor gave me...and finally believe, to my core, yes, it is a disease, I have it, it is dangerous, and it needs to be controlled. The only wildcard is the pregnancy...YIKES!!!Well, aside from the unpredictability in how the mania will manifest itself...it seems different every time and so it is difficult to recognize. But I am more alert for it than ever being committed to treatment more than ever, with more than 8 months of it behind me all i can do is hope I make it through it in one piece this time.
Well, not knowing you, I will say, you're write kinda manic.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to hear you're recognizing the disease, and the danger. These are important things. And yes, you have to find a good doctor and work with them.
8 months is great. Take it one moment at time, and soon it will turn into a year and longer.
Good luck.